Could Possibly Still Be

I give up
Broken
Hurt
Confused
Trying to grasp for straws
Make him understand
Losing patience
Lost control
Couldn't understand why he couldn't see
Couldn't understand how deep my love could be

Wanting to give it all
To someone who could not see
How deep and intense this love could really be

Trying to school me
But lost in his own lessons
I'm trying
Drowning in anguish
Crying for more
Wishing I could make him see
While I'm drowning waiting for this love that could be

Preaching to me
But still a student himself
Letting others persuade
Casting doubt
Wanting a lifestyle better than us
Not realizing my life rested with us

Scared
Emotional
Can hardly breath
Wanting nothing more than what could possibly be

Pride and fear
A horrible combination
Mixed with greed and selfishness
Two deadly persuasions
I'm left to drown
Can't catch myself
Looking up for my him to catch me
But see him over there fishing
Already for something small
In replace of me
So quickly dismissed of what could possibly be

Can't take no more
My heart is broken
Never to want to feel such emotions
Wishing it away
But knowing it will never be
Because I fell in love with what he made me trust it could be

Fighting alone
Wanting a future more than just this
Asking for more than just what's on the surface
Did he lie when he said I only love you
Or did he lie when he said I want my future with you
Or did he lie when he said it's just me against them
Or did he lie when he said I want you to be my wife

In the end
It couldn't possibly be what I thought it was for me
Because I'm crushed and mourning
While your laughing and lusting
Disrespecting and cussing
Taking all of my love with you where it can't possibly be

Broken promises
Sweet nothing's
Tomorrow gone just like that
For speaking up for what I needed
To step reluctantly in your shoes
Cost me everything I thought it could be
A way for him to finally see
That my love for him is endless
Desperate and ravenous
Punishable by default
Submissive if needed
Unconditional and long suffering
Yet one moment of reality
Made him open up his eyes
And feel what made me so angry
Enough to retaliate with injustice
Tearing my heart to pieces
Losing what I thought could possibly be
The greatest love I ever felt yet...

To be continued...

Those Times

Those Times

 

There are going to be times

When I get quiet

Just know it's because I'm thinking

There are going to be times

When I tell you I'm scared

Just reassure me that you won't hurt me

There are going to be times

When I try to push you away

Just pull me close to you and hold me tight

There are going to be times

When I cry for no reason

Just wipe my tears away and and kiss my forehead

There are going to be times

When I'm in physical pain

Just lay me down gently and watch over me

There are going to be times when

I seem a little distant

Just keep in contact and let me know your there when I need you

There are going to be times

When I get depressed

Just be patient I'm working through some things

There are going to be times

When I just want you hold me

Just cuddle up with me and let me rest my head on your shoulders

There are going to be times

When I just want to make love

Just love me tenderly and most of all passionately

There are going to be times

When I'm acting like a spoiled brat

Just know that I'm really pretty rotten and I want your undivided attention

There is going to be times

When I make a mistake

Just let me confess and try to forgive me

There is going to be a time

When I tell you how I feel

Just listen and respond with truth and compassion

There is going to be a time

When I tell you "I love you"

Just be honest and tell me exactly how you feel too

There is going to be a time

When I start asking you questions about the future

Just realize that I'm ready to take a step forward

                And if you're not just say so because…

There is going to be a time

I might say I believe "You are the One"

Just open your heart and accept that I just might be the one too

 

Those Times

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Your Friend,

Tiffany

www.frecklesofsunshine.blogspot.com

"The right person will love all the things about you that the wrong person was intimidated by."- Unknown Author

In My Mind

In my mind I imagine you smiling

Looking at me with admiration in your eyes

Wanting me and only me

Missing me when we are apart

Loving all of me despite my flaws

 

In my mind you are wishing on a star

Praying for the one to come along

Thanking God for sending you me

Giving thanks with each breath you take

 

In my mind you were sent to me

To help love me through the pain

Heal me through the heart ache

And carry me through the storms

 

In my mind you are made for me

Waking up to the thought of me

Making Us your priority and your life's mission

                To be filled with happiness

Needing me more than anything to hold you at night

 

In my mind you are It

You are the finale to my dreams

The king in all my fairytales

The prince that wakes me with a kiss

 

In my mind you are everything I need

All that I could have imagined

All my wishes coming true

In one handsome imperfect package

 

In my mind it's you and I forever

Loving each other

Caring for one another

Building our lives together

                Your children and mine

 

In my mind I am already giving my all to you

Already smiling at the thought of us

Already ready for what We have to offer

Already becoming One not just I

 

In my mind you are the relief my tired soul needs

The refuge I can run to

The one I can't wait to talk to

The one that's there to protect me through the storms

 

In my mind you are what I have been waiting for             

                All my life

You are the one that was meant to be mine

In my mind it was meant to be

That one night where you smiled at me

 

In my mind my heart kept beating to find You…

 

 

In My Mind

Category: Poetry

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That Moment

Hoping to find that moment
That moment when everything inside me smiles
That moment when all is good around me
That moment when I can wake up in the morning and feel soft, gentle hands upon my face

I'm waiting for that moment
That moment when I see the eyes that can peer through my soul
That moment when my joy overshadows my fear
The moment when I feel breathless with longing and anticipation

I can't wait for that moment when I rush to be in the arms I love
That moment when I can feel the tenderness of a heart filled with Me
That moment that brings tears to my eyes from the thought of becoming One forever

I dream of the moment
The moment when my days are filled with more then my children's laughter
A moment when I have someone to take care of me too
That moment when I feel safe to go to bed at night knowing my love is waiting for me

I can not wait for that moment
That moment when my heart is healed and has renewed its faith in love
That moment when all my prayers are answered
That moment when I finally can say I'm in love with a King
My forever, my universe

I can't wait for the moment I find You...

I Want You

I wake up to the sound of his voice whispering in my ear sweet things
I see his face clearly as I rise to start my day
I can picture him taking my hand leading me to bathe
I can feel his manliness behind me as he cleans between my thighs
I can wrap my arms around him as he dresses me gently in the morning
I can kiss his lips as he smiles wishing me a great day

I can imagine him there in everything I do
I can sense his presence making my heart brand new
I can feel the happiness radiating from his heart
I can let go and let him love me as I take hold of a new start

I want to enjoy what is between you and I
I want to open and give you all that money can't buy
I want to show how a woman should always treat her King
I want you and only You to have me as your Queen...

To be continued...

More Time

Feeling surreal
Thinking about the pending loss
Of a person I've adored
Since before I breathed life

Looking into his eyes
I see strength and fear
While on the outside I see a man tired and frail

I watch him as he moves slowly
Calculating every step
Weary with each step he takes
In pain, aching
Trying not to give up
But wishing for it to end

I can't help but feel sorrow
Watching my once stubborn father
Dwindling away right before my eyes
Seeing the worry in his eyes
As he smiles at my mother

Trying to be strong
I offer my help
Making an excuse to hold his hand
Care and embrace him

Feelings unresolved
I try to let go of the past
The scandals left in the darkness
As I silently pray for his well being
Forgiving him for all he did to me as an impressionable child

I see him
Slowly slipping away
Trying to hold on for my mother
Me
My babies he loves so much

As I fight within me to love him even more
As I watch him lose weight
Inch by inch
Becoming less than himself
Losing a part of me that was gone for so long

Daddys girl
My protector
My handsome father
I love so much

Trying not to miss him
Already
But seeing him like this
Makes me lose touch
With reality of knowing
That time may not be
On our side

But all I can pray for
Is just for blessings
To be mine
As I watch my dear father
And pray for more time

Your Mouth (draft)

This is not the first time I've asked you how you feel inside
Trying to read your mind
Seeing between the lines
All the while knowing your mouth is telling lies

So I waited
Trying to give you time
To see if you would clear your mind
Enough to see if you would make
Yourself mine
But you couldn't let go of what you truly felt inside

So I moved on to find what was rightfully mine
Someone who loved me
And who wouldn't waste my time
Someone who could express they wanted to be mine
Someone I knew whose heart was not blind

I waited for you to tell the truth
Throw away your pride and show me the proof
but you couldn't
Weren't ready
Shouldn't have played the friend role that much

Now I'm gone
Getting what I deserve
Not racking away at my nerves
Trying to figure something out

It wasn't the first time
I asked you for the truth
But now I know why you kept hiding
From what was true
You knew I.deserved better
And now I'm living the life
That only your heart could see
But your mouth could not trust