Actions Indeed Speak Louder than Words!

I just got off the phone with a fairly new friend of mine and she said some things to me that really hit me hard.
She told me that my actions were not matching my words and that's why I have open doors that are not ready to be closed (persay) because of those actions. People hold value over our actions and even though they hear our words and acknowledge them and let us speak them, our actions are what they base their opinions and own actions on.

People have been telling me for a while to close some doors and place a barrier in front of it and I have not listened or did not keep up to what my words said and here I am looking in the mirror- AGAIN. 

I really need to step back and figure this out.

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Chemistry

Chemistry

This natural chemistry is overwhelming

And exhilarating

The highs of taking you all in

Have me intoxicated.

I can see the lust in your eyes

And the longing you have for me

Yet your sweet and gentle and

Totally unpredictable.

I can feel this chemistry

And it feels so deliciously sweet

Its beautiful and unexpected

And deep and intriguing

All at once.

You have me mesmerized with your words

And the way you watch my every move

Makes me tingle in places I thought were resting

For this exact moment to arise.

I am magnetic around you

Not getting enough of what you and I share.

Our chemistry

This feeling between you and i

Is something amazing yet so simple

Its appreciated and a welcome escape.

Im excited about you

Yet I have a feeling

You are here for  all the right reasons

Not just for the passing of the seasons.

Im not blind to the intensity of what we have

This chemistry we can’t deny

Its electric and energenizing

Its alive and growing

Its design impeccable.

Nothing is boring about us

We are what people tweet about

And yet we are in our own world

uninterrupted by people admiring us.

We are captivating and engulfed

In learning each other

And we compliment each other so well.

This is new to us but this feeling

This chemistry is a history still being written

Im missing you during the day

And texting you at night

We talk for hours

Yet never get enough.

We are setting ourselves up

Its Me and You

And I know you feel it too.         

This chemistry.

               

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J. Holiday- Suffocate (Lyrics)

J Holiday - Suffocate


Now even though I try to play it off
I'm thinking about you all day long
And I can't wait for shorty to come through
From your lips and back up to your eyes
My hands on your hips when we grind
I'm fantasizing bout what I'm gonna do to you
Got me fiening for her love can't lie
Man you should see how she got me
Spending all this time with her
And I couldn't leave her if I wanted to
Her love turns men into fools
Tell me what a man is to do

Cuz I can't breathe when you talk to me
I can't breathe when you're touching me
I suffocate when you're away from me
So much love you take from me
I'm going outta my mind
I can't breathe when you talk to me
I can't breathe when you're touching me
I suffocate when you're away from me
So much love you take from me
I'm going outta my mind

Whenever we up in this bed
And my fingers fall in your hair
I wonder if you feel me watching you
Cuz I can't go a night without your lovin
Got me looking at this phone
Every time it rings I hope it's you girl
You got my bracing for your love
And I fallen for you I can't lie
I just wanna be with you
Yes she got me there I said it


And somebody call the paramedics
Tell em to hurry up and come through

Cuz I can't breathe when you talk to me (baby)
I can't breathe when you're touching me (when you touch me)
I suffocate when you're away from me
So much love you take from me
I'm going outta my mind (I'm going outta my mind)
I can't breathe when you talk to me
I can't breathe when you're touching me
I suffocate when you're away from me
So much love you take from me
I'm going outta my mind

Don't ever leave me girl
I need you inside my world
I can't go a day without you
And see nobody else will ever do
I'll never feel like I feel with you

Cuz I can't breathe when you talk to me
I can't breathe when you're touching me (when you touch me)
I suffocate when you're away from me
So much love you take from me
I'm going outta my mind (I'm going outta my mind)
I can't breathe when you talk to me (oh when you talk to me)
I can't breathe when you're touchin me (I can't breathe when you touchin me)
I suffocate when you're away from me
So much love you take from me
I'm going outta my mind (I'm going outta my mind)

Oh no no I can't breathe
Oh no no I can't breathe (I can't breathe)
Oh no no I can't breathe oh no

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I Get So Loney- Janet Jackson (lyrics)

I get so lonely 
Without you 

Janet & Blackstreet 
Chorus: 

Ohhh 
I get so lonely (so lonely) 
Can't let 
Just anybody hold me 
You are the one 
That lives in me my dear (you are the one) 
Want no one but you 
(repeat 1X) 

Janet: 

Sittin' here with my tears 
All alone with my fears 
I'm wondering if 
I have to do withoutcha 
But there's no reason why 
I feel asleep late last night 
Cryin' like a newborn child 
Holdin' myself close 
Pretendin' my arms are yours 
I want no one but you 

(Chorus) 

Blackstreet: 

I still remember to the day 
In fact is was a 3rd Monday 
You came along 
To be the one for me 
And now I'm so all alone 
I'm sittin' here by the phone (the phone) 
Called that say that your ok 
So that I have 
The chance to beg you to stay 
I want no one but you 

(Chorus) 

(I get so lonely) 
Everytime I see your face baby 
(Can't let) 
Everytime I hear your name 
(Just anybody hold me) 
Hard to believe that you and me 
(You are the one) 
No longer 
(That lives in me my dear) 
I want no one but you 

(repeat 1X) 

Break it down 
Break it down 

Janet & Blackstreet: 

Gonna break it down 
Break it down 
Break it down 

(repeat 1 X) 

You know 
(I know) 
That I know 
That I get so lonely 
Thinking of you 

(Chorus until fades-out)

Feeling Some Way

 Feeling Some Way

I am feeling some way being in your space

I can feel your presence and your lovely grace

You’re caring for me physically

But I can't help feeling you emotionally

I am feeling some way because you’re always there

Keeping me safe and showing you care

I depend on you without any doubts

You make me comfortable in ways I can’t even count

I’m feeling some way because your here for a reason 

Our friendship is rare and more than a season

It’s here to help us both get through hard times

And I heal with the vision in your kind eyes

I’m feeling some way because I know I’m the one

You’ve told me countless times that your search is done

Yet I keep running away because of my fears

But yet you’re always there to erase my tears

I am feeling some way because I can't wait to see you

The butterflies don't lie when I’m close and near you

I’m feeling some way because when you see me you smile

And all the worry and pain is gone for my miles

I never have to worry or be scared of you leaving

Because your love and your actions are never deceiving

I’m feeling some way because I’m holding on to what’s comfortable

But how long can we go on with this chemistry we have

Time can’t keep still and it won't let it pass

I’m feeling some way because inside I’m on fire

My heart is warm and full of desire

For a love so full of beautiful dreams

And a future of bliss or so it does seem

I’m feeling some way because it’s me holding back

I can't understand because there is nothing I lack

You are full of joy and happiness and its genuine I know

But I can't seem to get passed what I’m told is so

I’m feeling some way because at the end I’m happy

Being in the same space that is now us two

I couldn't ask for more because I have You

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Letting Go...

Letting go of someone you love is not always easy but letting go is sometimes needed. In order to move on and be better and stronger, you have to let people go in your life that are not adding substance and meaning. 
In the past week, I have lost my fiancee, the person I thought was my soulmate, my home, my stability, my serenity, and have been displaced mentally, emotionally and physically. But I have people, like my best friend and Luv, Sherri and my other BF, Ashley and many more who have proven to be a solid rock for me. I am so grateful for them all that remain in my life.