Woman in the Mirror

Woman in the Mirror

I look in the mirror and see a stranger

Rolls of fat

Sleepy eyes

Sadness

Darkness

Dried tears on my shoulders

 

I'm feeling deserted

Abandoned

Lost in my own home

Trying to navigate through quicksand

Unable to reach anyone

 

I'm lost for words

Not understanding

No comprehension

Trapped and lonely

 

I can't see the light

The tunnel is dark

The path twisting and turning

I can't discover where to go or how to…

Help myself

 

I'm scared

Not noticing myself in the mirror

Constantly lost

Always feeling like I'm on a roller-coaster

Can't see my future

Scared to let go and let god

 

I don't trust

Can't trust anyone to get close

Won't let anyone in to help

Constantly scratching at my skin

Trying to feel deep within

 

I'm broken

Perfect pieces laying on the floor

Stepped all over and shoved aside

 

I don't know her

That woman in the mirror

Who fell in love

Deserted by hope

Can't form the words to explain it all

Trapped in the light of uncertainty

Scared for myself and what's to come next

Not trusting my instincts anymore

Not trusting

Ultimately broken

Scared of the woman now looking at me in the mirror.

 

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This Place Called...

This Place Called...

He will not put more on you than you can bare

Yet, my heart is breaking and bursting everywhere

My feelings are all over the place

Restless, confused, feeling disgraced

 

Emotional over this place called Love

Always beautiful and mesmerizing

Yet painful and full of pain and strife

Constantly seeking for more than just Love…

 

Wishing for some peace

Praying for the agony to cease

Always longing for that place called Peace

Never reaching, always so far away

My frustrations never decrease

 

I'm open

Open to finding this place called Hope

Yet darkness is constant and

It's hard to cope

Always feeling off balance and on a slippery slope

 

I'm wishing on a star

Looking for that place called Faith

Scared to pray

Wondering why God left me in space

Floating endlessly, lost

Not even recognizing my own face

 

I silently grasp for this place called Trust

Wanting to believe that there has to be better

There has to be more than just this

Feeling of hopelessness and mistrust

Not wanting to let go yet feeling amiss

 

Constantly turning in circles

Looking for this place called Love

Wanting more

Needing more

Scared to move forward

But stuck and unsure

 

I run and find this place called Oblivion

Stuck in time

Can't move forward

Seeing the light but can't reach it

Because love hurts and it's a crime

Forcing me to choose us or nothing

Nothing or new

New or change

 

Yes Change.

That place called Change that

Promises love, peace, hope, faith, trust

Yet… its so far away

That I feel shortchanged and run back to… Love

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