With each day that passes
I can feel a piece of my heart slipping away
Holding on desperately to what my heart feels it needs
Ignoring what my mind is screaming out to me
Waiting, begging you to stay around
Not leaving me behind
But with each day that passes
I can feel my heart slipping away
Going into a distant corner
Hiding, waiting, patiently pacing
Back and forth
While you go on with your life
Not missing or needing me
Like I am for you
While each day passes
Taking me further and further away
From my dreams, my hopes, my everything
With each day that passes
I can't believe it came to this
Everything you asked me
I gave to you and yet it wasn't enough
My best wasn't enough! and yet
I gave my all while waiting for you
The days, months turning into a year
With each day that passed
My hope was renewed time and time again
Only to be shattered by your coldness
And disappearing acts
Your broken promises and everything
I had to keep holding on
Only to come to this moment right now
Where with each day that passes
I'm losing a little bit of me
While waiting for you to return the love
I have inside for you and you claimed you had for me too
With each day that passes
I look in the mirror constantly
Wondering if I'm not beautiful enough
Sexy enough
Smart enough
Healed enough
Remorseful enough
Paid enough for all you say I did to make you this way
Yet with each day that has passed
I have spent all of it
Trying to be a better woman for me
So that I can be a better woman to you
Like you asked of me
But with each day that passes
My efforts are rejected
My mission is cast aside
My courage is being tested
As you find excuses to walk away again and again
Knowing our hearts beat to the same song
Or so I mesmerized it to ring so
As each day passes with us being wasted
With each day that passes
I am feeling more and more hurt
Even more I can feel the pain
Deep down inside
Tearing me a part
Paralyzing me in a mental state of hysteria
Engulfing me in flames
Taking me away from reality
Making my insides erode from worry
As I keep dreaming of the day
When you will finally say
"I love you and want to stay"
Yet with each day that passes
That I don't hear your voice
And don't get any response from you
I am dying inside
Heart broken by fates cruel joke
As each day passes I can't help but fight
Knowing that I didn't get to this place
For it not to be right
But with each day that passes
I'm wondering more and more
If all this is a lesson
and I'm supposed to survive this
Until I'm lovesick,
lifeless
and poor
Not one day can pass
Without me wanting to love you
But I'm coming to the conclusion
That you will never stop running from it too
My heart is giving in
Ready to run and hide
Never peeking out for fear
That you won't be there
As each day passes
you're becoming more of an illusion to me
A knight on a white horse
That my mother promised me didn't exist
A prince that will never kiss me awake
An angel with misery as its duty
With each day I'm losing my dreams
And waking up to nightmares
With you as the subject of my decent to oblivion
With each day I'm trying to hold on
Frustrated
Worried
Scared
Lost
Disgusted
Fighting a war that seems never to end
Because you can't trust anyone
Not even your own heart
To let me love you
Like you always wanted me to
Because with each day that has passed
You are making me suffer
The man's scorn of a broken heart unmended
And with each day
I pay the price of a woman in love
Who is trying to win your heart
With everything in me
Though it's tearing me apart
Yet I am still here
Praying for you
Asking God to forgive you and heal you
Because I've forgiven you too
Every moment I hear your voice
And see your face
Promising me you want me forever
Asking me to wait while you mend
As each day passes
I'm asking for some sign that you and I are worth fighting for
Only to keep running into your wall of silence
Trying to beat it down with each pump of my heart
With each dose of love potion
With everything inside me that wants to hold on
To this great love I can't seem to let go
But
With each day that passes
I can see my life flash before me
Losing my heart to anger and sorrow
Stress and regrets
Becoming bitter and resentful
And with each day that passes
I painfully wither in defeat
Slowly losing me
While waiting for you
While I try to hold on as the days pass me by
To what's left- my soul, my dreams, my hopes, my everything
While still waiting for you