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Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Check This

I see you over there
checking me out
Your fine, sophisticated
and what I've been talking about
You like me
I like you
Now what we gonna do
I'm feeling you
Your feeling me
So what we gonna do

Check it
I don't have time for games
Or wasting my time on playas
I'm a real chick
And what I have to offer
is made only for lovers

So let me know what you want
and I'll tell you what I need
Then we can get up and talk
And figure out where this leads

We been watching each other for a while
But we can't seem to get it together
But I'm tired of all this silence
Because I'm looking for my forever

So what you trying to do
Don't talk about it, be a about it
I know what I'm tryin to do
I'm trying to be about you

Court me
Romance me
Show me what I'll get in you
I'll spoil you
Seduce you
and show you my heart too

I'm tired of this back and forth
I know you are too
I'm worth it
Your worth it
So its up to me and you

I'm waiting for my King
Because I know that I'm a Queen
So bring yourself to me
So we can fulfill our destiny

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Passion to Me

I want to feel the passion of love again
The way it feels to desire someone and only them
A feeling of immense pleasure whenever their around
I want to feel the way a woman should when her baby enters the room
Making me forget everyone around me
I want to feel the moment when my heart skips a beat and I become breathless when you look at me
I want to feel the gentleness of your hand caressing my face
The sweet taste of your lips meeting mine
I want to feel the chills down my spine as you place your hand at the small of my back
I want to feel the passion of knowing you are waiting for me as I step off the plane
I want to feel that nervousness in my belly when I know you have to leave
I want to feel those silly butterflies that flutter around when I see your face pop up on my phone
I want to blush everytime you say my name
I want to feel the passion I felt the first moment I saw you
and I want to feel that sickening feeling I get when I know our visit is coming to an end
I want to feel all the wonderful emotions that come with being in love with someone who genuinely loves me back.
I want to feel more than I've ever felt before
I want to feel the anticipation of knowing we have a future together
I want to feel the confidence of knowing that we are going to be okay
I want to feel the depth of his love for me in his actions AND his words
I want to feel all this passion between my thighs as I wrap my legs around you making us one
I want to feel the romance in your tongue as you kiss me so deeply that I fall deeper in love with you.
I want to feel a climax so strong that you have to carry me back from Paradise.
I want to feel that passion of your embrace as you hold me close to you making me feel safe and warm.
I want to feel the presence of you growing inside me everyday validating what we have for all to see.
I want this passion more than a one night stand or a date with a rich man.
I want to feel everything that encompasses what I've always imagined love can be.
I want to feel what being in love really means to me.
I just want to feel what he once did for me.

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

With Each Day

With each day that passes

I can feel a piece of my heart slipping away

Holding on desperately to what my heart feels it needs

Ignoring what my mind is screaming out to me

Waiting, begging you to stay around

Not leaving me behind

But with each day that passes

I can feel my heart slipping away

Going into a distant corner

Hiding, waiting, patiently pacing

Back and forth

While you go on with your life

Not missing or needing me

Like I am for you

While each day passes

Taking me further and further away

From my dreams, my hopes, my everything

 

With each day that passes

I can't believe it came to this

Everything you asked me

I gave to you and yet it wasn't enough

My best wasn't enough! and yet

I gave my all while waiting for you

The days, months turning into a year

With each day that passed

My hope was renewed time and time again

Only to be shattered by your coldness

And disappearing acts

Your broken promises and everything

I had to keep holding on

Only to come to this moment right now

Where with each day that passes

I'm losing a little bit of me

While waiting for you to return the love

I have inside for you and you claimed you had for me too

 

With each day that passes

I look in the mirror constantly

Wondering if I'm not beautiful enough

Sexy enough

Smart enough

Healed enough

Remorseful enough

Paid enough for all you say I did to make you this way

Yet with each day that has passed

I have spent all of it

Trying to be a better woman for me

So that I can be a better woman to you

Like you asked of me

But with each day that passes

My efforts are rejected

My mission is cast aside

My courage is being tested

As you find excuses to walk away again and again

Knowing our hearts beat to the same song

Or so I mesmerized it to ring so

As each day passes with us being wasted

 

With each day that passes

I am feeling more and more hurt

Even more I can feel the pain

Deep down inside

Tearing me a part

Paralyzing me in a mental state of hysteria

Engulfing me in flames

Taking me away from reality

Making my insides erode from worry

As I keep dreaming of the day

When you will finally say

"I love you and want to stay"

Yet with each day that passes

That I don't hear your voice

And don't get any response from you

I am dying inside

Heart broken by fates cruel joke

As each day passes I can't help but fight

Knowing that I didn't get to this place

For it not to be right

But with each day that passes

I'm wondering more and more

If all this is a lesson

and I'm supposed to survive this

Until I'm lovesick,

lifeless

and poor

 

Not one day can pass

Without me wanting to love you

But I'm coming to the conclusion

That you will never stop running from it too

My heart is giving in

Ready to run and hide

Never peeking out for fear

That you won't be there

As each day passes

you're becoming more of an illusion to me

A knight on a white horse

That my mother promised me didn't exist

A prince that will never kiss me awake

An angel with misery as its duty

With each day I'm losing my dreams

And waking up to nightmares

With you as the subject of my decent to oblivion

 

With each day I'm trying to hold on

Frustrated

Worried

Scared

Lost

Disgusted

Fighting a war that seems never to end

Because you can't trust anyone

Not even your own heart

To let me love you

Like you always wanted me to

Because with each day that has passed

You are making me suffer

The man's scorn of a broken heart unmended

And with each day

I pay the price of a woman in love

Who is trying to win your heart

With everything in me

Though it's tearing me apart

 

Yet I am still here

Praying for you

Asking God to forgive you and heal you

Because I've forgiven you too

Every moment I hear your voice

And see your face

Promising me you want me forever

Asking me to wait while you mend

As each day passes

I'm asking for some sign that you and I are worth fighting for

Only to keep running into your wall of silence

Trying to beat it down with each pump of my heart

With each dose of love potion

With everything inside me that wants to hold on

To this great love I can't seem to let go

 

But

With each day that passes

I can see my life flash before me

Losing my heart to anger and sorrow

Stress and regrets

Becoming bitter and resentful

And with each day that passes

I painfully wither in defeat

Slowly losing me

While waiting for you

While I try to hold on as the days pass me by

To what's left- my soul, my dreams, my hopes, my everything

While still waiting for you

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Inspiration

You’re inspiring to me
Your smile alone touches me
Your words bring out the best in me
With you I can feel something deep within me

You’re inspirational like a warm fall day
Filled with beautiful colors and the
fall of old leaves making a path for a new way
Your inspiration is like the sunset over a vast ocean
with only the past as a cast away
You light up my life
like the moonlight after a winter storm
You calm me,
inspiring everything natural to me

You inspire me through your actions
The way you comfort my soul
Motivate my mind
Stimulate my heart
Embracing everything about me
spiritually as you pray for me

You are the reason why I am inspired
For you have brought simplicity to my chaos
Meaning to my confusion
A soundboard to my depression and
provided me a refuge from my own worst enemy

You have given me a way
to channel all that inspires me
By supporting my goals
Helping me help you reach yours
Planning a future of
peace and blessings and
something to look forward to

Your inspiration has gave me
a song to remember
A sway in my hips
A rhythm to blush at
when I think of your baritone
singing a melody so sweet
that I can't help but catch the Love Jones

You inspire me to write
Expressing my emotions
Realize my feelings
Validate what you do to me
each time I think of you

Yet you inspire me
simply to be me entirely
inside and out
You inspire me
to take life one moment at a time
without any doubts
You inspire me
to wake up in the morning and
Look forward to seeing you again
You inspire me.
You inspire me!
You inspire Me!