Feeling vulnerable
as I undress in front of you
opening up my soul
in hopes that you will save me from feeling this way
worried about my body
I reach for you
In hopes that you will free
This heartache and pain
Of not knowing where my diagnosis will take me
Feeling as if something is invading my body
Taking me out my comfort zone
Somewhere familiar
But someplace I never wanted to come back to
You hold my face in your hands
And you look at me with such sweetness
It melts my fears
If only for a few moments
In your arms I find comfort
Surrealness
A longing cured for if only
For a few moments
You hold me close
And our hearts fall into rhythm
My breasts are rising with each breath I take
But I'm scared to embrace them
Like I used to
They feel fragile in my hands now
My prized possessions
Suddenly under microscope
But you gently touch my skin
Kiss my neck
Tell me that everything is going to be okay
And you whisper in my ear that you care for me
I look in your eyes
And I can see genuine concern
If only for a few moments
I ask you to make love to me
And "act like you truly do"
And without hesitation you tell me
You always have
As I entrust you with my feelings
My emotions
My tears
My pains
My needing to have someone touch me
In places that I'm scared to touch myself
For fear I may fall apart
You take me in your arms
And lay me down gently kissing me tenderly
Reassuring me that you will always be here
And in those few moments
I believe everything will be okay
As long as I am in your arms
If only for a few moments
As we lay down together
Naked and exposed
Cradled safely in your arms
I can feel the warmth of your body
As it relaxes me
Taking all my stress away
You touch me gently, slowly
Taking your time
I'm feeling timid and not myself
Self-conscious of everything physical
Wanting to be explored but scared of losing control
In fear that something inside me may explode
And take me away before my time
But your hands caress my skin
Firm and sure
Reassuring and comforting
And your lips feel so warm
Against mine
And you take my breast in your hands
And hold them
Just hold them…
As my chest rises and falls
As I come in contact with the
Mass inside my ample bosom
I can feel it, lurking and feeding
When suddenly your lips meet mine
And your tongue shares the sweetness of your kiss
And you take hold
Of all that's ugly inside me
And let it go with the passion
Of your love and sincerity
Appreciating every inch of my body
Every crevice
Every space
Every sensitive spot
And you give me such divine pleasure
With each stroke of your hips
With each lunge of your pride
With each peak that we meet
And in a feverish minute
You turn me around and fill me up
Grabbing my breasts, pinching my nipples
And I can no longer feel any pain
But only Us
Mesmerized
In a whirlwind of emotions
As you smack my ass, claim my pussy
Thrust inside me
Making me moan with such delight
That I can't help but laugh through tears
At the thought of losing this feeling
For even a brief moment
And when we climax together
You turn me around
Tasting the nectar of my temple
Not finished
Just getting started
As you go on the quest
To give me exactly what I need
Slow, sensual, lovemaking
Not only to my body
But to my mind, my heart, my universe
And then I see them
Your perfect chest
Your strong arms and your loving face
Looking down at me
Reassuring me that I will be okay
And you have always been here
To remind me that I am sexy
And beautiful
And lovely in every way
As our bodies come together
In a rhythm only the great jazz artists can relate to
Creating a melody so amazing that we have no choice
But to harmonize together
In those few moments
I regained my strength
To fight for what I admire the most about my body
And to embrace them and love them
And nurture and care for them
As you did
Surprisingly in your bad boy exterior (I'm blushing)
In those few sweet moments
I saw something in you
I had never seen before
And I needed it
You fulfilled my wishes
You transferred your hope
And renewed my faith
In those few sweet moments
I became a Survivor yet again…
