Friday, June 28, 2013
Secret Rendezvous
Emotional
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
My Purpose in Life
In this Moment
In A Flash
Monday, June 17, 2013
Spellbound
In my sleep I can feel you looking at me
Watching me breath
Counting the freckles on my face
Twirling my curls between your fingers
When I wake I can feel you close to me
Watching my every move
Smiling at the way I walk about
Making me blush as I catch you staring lovingly at me
As my day goes on I can sense you all around me
Protecting, sheltering me from harm
Peeking to make sure I'm smiling
Doing things to give me reason to think of you
Returning home I can hear you say my name
Telling me you miss me and love me
But then when I look around your not there
I'm hearing things but smiling anyway at the memory of you
I lay down in the warm water
To wash away my day
Feeling you behind me playing in my hair
Washing my stresses away with your gentle touch
Whispering in my ear that you will always be here
I glance in the mirror
And in my reflection
I can see your chest rise
As you lick your lips letting me know you long for me as I crave for you
I touch myself as I lay down to dry off
Feeling the wetness you inspired
As I can feel your full lips
On the back of my neck and your soft hands between my thighs
Claiming me
Not allowing me to want anyone else but you
As I please myself with not one finger but two
I can feel your hands all over me
And your mouth tasting every inch of me
Bringing myself to a height that only you can summon
When I awaken from my fantasy
I sit up, chill bumps all over my body
I look around and again your not there
Only in my memory
Your voice fades away
Yet my feelings are intense and unwilling to let go
I can feel an energy outside
As I run to look out the window
And I can see you waving at me
And your smile is so bright I can't help but run out the door
But when I get there I fall down in misery
For your presence is only in my conscious mind
Your promises broken
My heart shattered
Our love only resides within me
And your nowhere to be found but in my heart
Smiling, touching and leaving me
Dreaming and waiting for you
Spellbound
Friday, June 14, 2013
Rejection
Rejection
Cuts like a knife and leaves you bleeding inside out
Takes away your dignity and tears you down
Rejection
Hurts even worse when its from someone you love
That someone you offered the world to
Who won't even walk a mile with you
Rejection
When you love someone so much
Yet they stopped loving you
Turning to someone else to fill their time and you in their head
While sleeping on the bed you bought
Under the sheets you made love in
Rejection
That moment when you give your best
And it isnt enough and you can't seem to find your way through their dust
They left behind as they ran in the opposite direction out of fear or so they say
Rejection
As you pick up the phone to call someone to say I love you
Or just to say I'm thinking of you
And you know they sent you straight to voicemail
Or they give you some bullshit excuse that their phone went dead or "I left my phone in the car!"
Rejection
When you get the butterflies in your stomach
Because you thought they were on their way
And the clock keeps ticking- tick tock tick tock
As you lie across the bed crying in dismay
Rejection
As your heart beats to anothers drum
While they sang and dance to the song of the girl next door
That can't even dance to happy feet and can barely hold a note
And what about this
Rejection
When you look in the mirror and you can see everything they use to admire still looking good
Only to see pics of her new boo who is a You minus one multiplied by zero
Rejection
When your friends start to invite you to singles events
Or take you off the guest list because your no longer the other half to the hot couple everyone loved to see
Rejection
When you long to kiss, touch and have them naked against your skin
Only to roll over to an empty bed over and over again
With your phone on vibrate between your thighs
Waiting for them to just cum by
Rejection
Is when everything you thought you wanted
Is in reach and you can't touch it or get close
Or what you need you can't have
Who you want doesn't either want you, deserve you, know how to treat you or keep you
And what your heart yearns you just can't seem to find or hold onto
Rejection
Is what makes us insane, cry,jealous, weak, weary and damn near suicidal
If not life threatening
BUT it also makes us wiser, independent, determined and yes even STRONGER
Redemption
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
When You Look at Me
I can imagine something more
when you look at me
It makes me melt
And want to let my guard down
I can see something promising
When you look at me
Seeing the future through your eyes
Knowing you want me there
I can feel something real
When you look at me
Its genuine, positive
And it radiates straight to my heart
I can feel special and appreciated
When you look at me
Because your words and actions match
Giving me reasons to believe in you
I can feel myself blushing
When you look at me
Because I see and feel you want me
And its not about sex
Its much deeper than that
I can sense that you love me
when you look at me
Even though its too soon
I know that its more than just like
Its remarkable and cool
I can feel my walls coming down
When you look at me
tearing them down one by one
As you assure me I'm worth the wait
I can feel my tension subsiding
When you look at me
Because I feel safe with you
And believe you will protect me too
I can have all my questions answered
When you look at me
Refecting all I need to know
Giving me no reason to have doubts
I can see myself giving you all my time
When you look at me
As your expressions say you miss me
And I find myself missing you too
I can be myself with you
When you look at me
Because you accept me for who I am
And don't want me to change, not even for you
I can feel myself wanting to give in
When you look at me
Because the intensity in your eyes
Melts my insecurities away...almost completely
I can begin to trust you
When you look at me
Because in your eyes I am already yours
And your priority is to make me smile
I can see myself with you
When I look at my reflection staring back at me
Because I know my needs
And know that above the rest
You are standing up to my test
When you look at me
I smile inside knowing your
Who you are and I can be who I am
And its okay to be scared
As long as your there
Wanting and waiting patiently
For me as you look at me
Sunday, June 9, 2013
Destiny
But when I awaken to reality I see loss and mistrust
In my hopes I can see a future with you and I
But when the hopes start to fade and fear sets in I only see pain
But in my mind I can't grasp that possibility
Because the past is still present
We may visit Love and Forever but Faith can't stay
Because doubt has crept in and laid rest with Dismay
In a colorful mirage of something called trust
however guilt and regret can’t leave without prey
A commitment to love each other despite how everyone feels
Happy, together and living our lives
Raising our family and growing together
Then reality wakes me up and I'm dreaming alone
Sitting their old without you by side
Because somewhere along the way we lost a few key pieces
That kept us together for all the right reasons
Respect. Loyalty and a Bond like no other.
A cherished friendship that was beyond any other
Broken and abused, torn and broke down
Stomped on and crushed
left lost and not yet found.
And what I thought we had was never ever really there
Yet I refuse to believe that dreams don't come true
Because if that was the case
for one thing I know my heart is not blind
To the colors of the path that leaves to Destiny and Fate
When I looked in your eyes and our love could not wait.
Sunday, June 2, 2013
Next Lifetime
Maybe we will pass each other again
At a crossroads
Where we are both waiting
for something beautiful to happen
Like it did once before
Passionately
Unexpectedly
Just like you and me
Maybe next lifetime
You will be made for only me
Want only me
Have time to explore all that could possibly be
Maybe when our paths cross
we will be on the same track
Leading to the same place
Keeping up with each others pace
Maybe when me meet
Sparks will fly
And butterflies will flutter
And fireworks will explode like our attraction to one another
Maybe next lifetime
We will come back as lovebirds
Singing a sweet melody that everyone will enjoy
Maybe when we lock eyes
For the first time
You will see right to my heart
And want to never leave my side
Maybe in our next lifetime
You will open your eyes and see
That you were born for just me
And we are destined- you and me
Maybe when we fall again
You will settle down
And make me a priority
Instead of wasting this lifetime
Running from what could have been
And realize what I did back then
maybe your next lifetime