Drowning
in a sea of sorrow
Reaching
out to emptiness
I’m
crying for help
But
their falling into waves of darkness.
Spinning
in circles in a funnel of emotions
Trying
not to drown in what seems like an ever ending storm
The
waves are beating me senseless
Yet
I can feel everything deep within me
I
am gasping for air consumed with worry, doubt and fear
Scared
of what may be the end of my life
Praying
for relief to come
And
save me from sinking into oblivion
Loyalty,
passion and love don’t help in this tornado of inner destruction
It
seems inevitable but yet who I am gives me the strength to survive
I’m
still alive and floating motionless
I’m
dreaming of an escape and feel myself getting stronger and stronger
Not
knowing why
but understanding it’s
necessary.
I
deserve to live.
I
deserve to have all I’ve earned and yearned to have.
I’m
still young. I still have dreams to fulfill and my kids to raise.
O
God… I need to be free of this pain and suffering that has engulfed
me and left me soaking in misery.
My
legs begin to find some resources deep within my broken walls
My
arms reach up and my hands test the waters around me
I
am not drowning.
I
have amazingly drifted closer to reality
And
I can see something familiar
An
island of destiny appears and
the
sun is caressing my face and awakening all that exists inside me.
I
can get closer if I just use what God gave me.
I
have a powerful innate sense of fight
and
I can find peace as I bring myself upright in white sands
Feeling
my existence again for the first time.
I’m
alive and safe and have survived
Yet
again.
My
license to sink has been swept away
The
waters have calmed and I can see the horizon of hope.
I
praise Him for yet another day to feel something
Versus
an abyss of doubt and despair.
I’m
alive and free to be me
surrounded
by a sea of uncertainties…
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I so feel the pain in this
ReplyDeleteIt definitely came from a dark spot.
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