I Pray to My Pain

I Pray to My Pain

I’m heartbroken

Because of the love I’ve lost

Wishing for what we once had

With full love and full trust.

An aching, knawing, painful feeling

Takes over me and death’s appealing.

I’m lost and confused

At this dreadful miserable end

I can’t even wish

Or try to pretend.

My pulse is weak

And my breath is shallow.

I’m slowly slipping

My mind soon will follow.

I’m lonely and desperate

Holding on to the past.

I’m falling so deep

I’m losing it fast.

I’m screaming inside

And cursing at life.

My future is bleak

I’m losing this fight.

I’ve felt such a loss

When I turned true love away before.

But this time it’s different

I gave my all and much more.

I welcomed you completely

With no reservations or doubts.

With open arms I embraced you

I left nothing out.

A friendship so rare

Everyone could see

That you and I

Were meant to be.

But now I stand alone

With my dreams quickly shattered.

I walk around helpless

My soul is tattered.

Gloomy and dark

My soul thrashes and screams.

I pray for this nightmare

To not destroy my dreams.

I’m broken

I’m lost

I’m lonely

I’m scared

I can’t begin to understand

Or even try to compare.

How can I go on

When I can’t even believe

Or fathom the reason you left

And completely abandoned me?

I gave you my All

Turned others aside

I completely let go

And let you totally inside.

I blindly grasp

For what all of this means.

I’m lonely and broken

And my future is yet to be seen.

Living in the past

Foretold what it would be

A valid yet strong

Sense of fantasy.

Yet I’m here and still broken

Because I thought we were much more

Two people who love

Straight right to the core.

Broken, lonely, lost and yet sure

That no other union will

Surpass this that is pure

I hope that you’re happy

For this I will say

There never will be a day

That I won’t miss you and still see

Your smile and your tenderness

That so gently captured me

I pray no I plead

That one day this pain will fade

But our love

Yes our love

Will always remain

And my pain

O this pain

Won’t forever stay the same

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