Day 7- Daddy Why (finished)

Daddy why

That day is clear in the back of my head

I made a mistake that left me better off dead

Decision not made quick enough

You caught us now, time was up

He ran in fear and left me in shame

But no shame is deeper than the scar you made

Touching me, taunting me

You call that discipline?

Discipline skipped a little session

The session that made you scare me to tears

And forget who you were in one failed year

A year that cost me not just your little girl

But the innocence that comes from being your girl

Cause let you tell it, shame was the motive

But nothing could explain your silent votive

The votive that lit a burning inferno

Intentions were there but the reason was shallow

See I would have taken a beaten any day

Then the words that came from your mouth that you say

Teach me a lesson, so I dare to it again

But you just taught me how to use it again and again

Use my body for those that say

Those words you used to say everyday

I love you my dear, your daddy’s little girl

But little girl was lost when I saw who you were

Inside out, not the man that I thought

The man that was supposed to love me, or so they taught

Why daddy, did you say the thing that you said

Touch me the way you did made me sad

Sad for the loss I suffered that day

Not just my respect, but the love that one may

May see as we lay to show me they care

The only thing they care for is using me bare

Daddy why did you lean over me

Displaying yourself so

You may not went there but the bruises prove tho

Daddy why did you take it there

Cause I’m constantly wondering when…

When you will give me back that little girl

That love and respected her daddy back then

Daddy why did you hurt me

Worse than any other man

Daddy why didn’t you leave me

When you had the chance to

Teach me to respect myself and my body

Not flaunt it and use it and make myself money

Isn’t that love? My daddy taught me well.

O Father please take me from this private hell

Daddy I love you. You brought me into this world.

But please God forgive me for wishing you were dead

On those days that I look at my daughter and wonder

Is he thinking of her and then I ponder

Ponder what I would do if you ever hurt her that way

Your life would be over like you took mine that day

Daddy why

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Day 6- You Need Her

You need a friend that will be there through thick and thin
Someone whose got your back even when they dont agree
A friend there to lean on and smile with

You need a woman who will stick by your side
Be there when your on top of the world
And sticks around when no one else would

You need a lover who will fulfill your fantasies
Fulfill you every desire and not afraid to be a freak in the sheets
And a woman you respect enough not to cheat

You need a queen that will support your dreams
Follow you to the ends of the earth
Ride with you in the middle of a war
And rule with you like the king you are

You need a  partner who will sign on the dotted line
Not afraid to take chances or scared to try new things
And advocates for what you believe in because she is fully invested in you

You need a wife who will cherish you forever
Love you even when you might not deserve it
Puts you and your children first
And loves God more than herself

You need a mother to your children
Who will nourish and raise your offspring
Protect and guide them and keep them safe from harm- even against you

You need to give a rib in sacrifice for the One
That Jah himself has chosen for only you
To respect as your better half
Your friend, woman, lover, queen, partner, wife, and mother of your children
For with her you have been truly been blessed and will reap the benefits of a love so devine
That no man will ever be able to separate
What God has put together- You and Her

Day 5- No Rebounds

With me their is no such thing as a rebound
Because everything I feel, every effort I exert, every emotion I express comes from deep within
And with each beat of my heart I can feel it pound

I say this because rebounds occur with your hopes and dreams stuck in your past
Your sights on the future have not yet been seen
But with me
I can see visions clearly and pristine

I can't look back anymore,

stay stuck in coulda, woulda, shouldas or force what’s not meant to be
But I don’t have to do that with you and me
Because what we have was real from the start
The convo. The flirting. The way you made me blush.
And when I could no longer see you, I longed for Your touch.

I didn’t think of Him and how he used to make me feel
I didn’t wonder why he didn’t make me feel this way anymore
I didn’t once feel guilty because part of me still wanted him 
I didn’t worry about if and when he might come back
I didn’t think of none of that

The only thing I could see was the possibilities and what was right before my eyes
I can feel Our chemistry and the fire between my thighs
Longing for only you and needing only you
Wanting only you
Who is he... Obviously not the man I needed him to be
If he was wouldn't he be here with me?

So fuck rebounds, I'm real and uncut.
I know what I want and I'm putting it out front.
I want to love hard and recklessly
Breathe uncontrollably
I want to sweat with the thought of running to you
I want to continuously become brand new with you
I want to transform to fit all you need
I just want to be in your air and be wanted by you

I want you to feel what you have when you look at me
I want you to understand what you mean to me
I want you to want me as much as I want you
And I want you to see a future with just us two

With me their is no rebound because I know what I want
I want my future, my forever
My someone to grow up with
My someone who loves me and adores me
That someone who forgives me because he knows I'm invested in us
Someone who I can laugh and cry with and not feel ashamed
Someone who loves my extra pounds and appreciates my curves

I just want to play this game with you
And rebound into life with you
My forever, my best friend, my everything.

No rebounds.

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Day 4- Seasonal

Seasonal

On a brisk winter morning

I can feel the heat of your body against my back

The warmth of your breathe heating my neck

And the firmness of your hand

Touching my private spot getting her wet.

On a spring afternoon

I can feel your hands in my hair

And your mouth against my lips

Slipping your tongue in my mouth playing

And I can feel it growing against my thigh longing for me.

In the simmering heat of a summer evening

I can feel your gems flowing inside me

Burning my insides like an inferno

With extreme pleasure

While the coolness of your tongue is licking my nipples

Making me moan and scream and wanting more

…its refreshing being with you.

As fall comes and night falls

I crave the moment we lay down together

Side by side enjoying the colorful essence of our lovemaking.

I'm loving you, lusting you, needing you, wanting only you

As we prepare for another round of sweet love and pure delight.

The weather is changing but our love is more intense

As our love grows and we dance in the glory of it all

Between the sheets ready for the seasons to change.

Day 3- Words

Words are more than just letters on paper
They are a testimony to emotions verbally unspoken
They are factual statements written to give credence to what we've been trying to say.

Words are more than just syllables
They are broken into a language that we both can understand and comprehend.
They are translations of our feelings within.

Words are their to build foundations for communication
And validation of what we feel and need.

Words are written expressions of what we tend to ignore in fear that if we can't speak it we can jot them down to be read later.

Words are symbols of our determination to prove what we can't see.
They are proof of more than just skepticism but belief.

Words are the way we write our history and foresee our future.
They allow us to devise a plan
And formulate opinions.

Words give us a voice to be heard in every way possible.
We understand them, because they are universal.

Words are created in different languages but they translate the same.

Words help me help you understand who I am
When no one else can.
They validate my self evaluation and give you something to refer to later.

Words end wars with promised peace
And start fights that sometimes wont cease.

Words create, define, transform, and destroy everything around us
but words can't control our fate entirely.

See words can sometimes be misinterpreted depending on who speaks them
And words can stifle the true meaning if your not careful of their use.

Words are sometimes better left unsaid when it comes to matters of the heart
Because the saying "actions speak louder than WORDS" are true!!!

Words don't necessarily define You.
They only paint a picture of what we want to see, feel, and want.
Yet words are often self taught.

Words. W O R D S. Letters written on paper for us to refresh.

 

 

 

 

 

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Day 2- What Made Me Think

What Made Me Think

What made me think that a weekend romance would turn into forever?
What made me think that I could fall in love with a simple first kiss?
I'm a realist. Beyond these fantasies. Yet I fell for them. I fell for you.
What made me think that I was the only one who captured your attention?
What made me think that you didn’t have these affairs all the time?
I'm not into one night stands or morning afters. 
I’m not into stolen moments or sweet surrenders.
What made me think that I could withstand the distance- again?
What made me think that the miles wouldn’t be our end? 
I thought I wasn't the type to wait
but I was kinda waiting for you... 
I'm not the type to sit around
day dreaming either but I did that too.
What made me think that your eyes were really sincere?
What made me think that your lips spoke the truth without fear?
I know that everything I felt was real and tangible.
I know that everything I said I really meant.
What made me think that this amazing, explosive kind of love actually existed?
What made me think that I would not fall and completely bump my head?
Well it is what it is and call me a fool.
I enjoyed every minute of it and now it’s cool. 
I'll be a fool and still remember the beauty that we shared.
I'll be the one holding on to those moments that can’t be compared.
I'll be the one waiting for the day you come back to me again.
What made me think this couldn’t work?
What made me think this wasn't right?
What made me think that this just might be what I had been waiting for?
I don’t know but Ill put in the time and effort and see.
I don’t know but it feels so good to me. 
I don’t know but I'm willing to find out for you.
I don’t know but I hope all my wishes come true.

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I Want to Be (Day 1 of Poetry Month)

I Want to Be

I want to be the image that inspires your dreams at night.
I want to hear your voice as I watch the sunrise.
I want to be the nourishment that feeds your mind.
I want to be the energy that fuels your day. 
I want to be the break that inspires your work.
I want to be the reason you rush home after a long day.
I want to be the only woman you desire and crave for.
I want to be the freak that fulfills your fantasies.
I want to be the shoulder you lean on when you’re stressed.
I want to be the brickhouse you're proud to flaunt around your boys.
I want you be the woman you can't wait to take home to momma.
I want to be the foundation you build your future with.
I want to be the reason why you want to be romantic for the first time.
I want to be the thought that makes you smile for no apparent reason. 
I want to be the rhythm that makes you dance.
I want to be the answer to your questions.
I want to be the girl next door you always wanted.
I want to be your best friend, lover and partner. 
I want to be the woman you can see raising your children. 
I want to be the woman who draws your attention in a crowded room.
I want to be the damsel you would protect with your life.
I want to be the person whose sentences you complete.
I want to be the woman who captures your heart.
I want to be woman you need, not just want.
I want to be the woman who stands out in front of the rest. 
I want to be the woman you trust with your secrets.
I want to have the hand you find the perfect ring for. 
I want to be the One through better or worse, richer or poorer, to death do us part.
I want to be the One you make as your wife.

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