Broken down
and tired
Wondering
what and where my future leads
I sit angry
and cold
Lost and
abandoned
Hurt and
above all else
Disappointed
I can’t
imagine why you can’t see
Why can’t
you look at me and see
I am the
woman you always wanted
I am the woman
you always asked for
I am here. I’m
Me.
Why can’t
you take Me as I am?
I stand tall
Knowing I’ve
lost the war of having what my heart so desperately needs
I stand even
though I feel weak to my knees
Defeated
Spent
Done
Why can’t
you take Me as I am?
I pray that
one day you will see
I pray that
one day I will know
I pray that
one day I will heal
Nothing
should hurt so bad
Love lost
only to be found
And then
lost again
Why can’t
you take Me as I am?
I can only
be
Beautiful,
open, genuine, sincere
Torn yet mended
Broken yet
healing
Past pains
And past
failures
And past
choices
All in my
past
And yet
still haunting me
Why can’t
you take Me as I am?
I am all
that I can be
I am
offering you that plus more
My kids
My heart
My body
My future
My now
Why can’t
you take Me as I am?
I am the
loyal friend
The trusted
listener
The go
getter
The child
advocator
The lover-
not the fighter
I am strong
I am
intelligent
I am loving
I am sincere
But I’m not
yours
Why can’t
you take Me as I am?
I realize
that I grew up
I got bigger
Thicker
Sexier
Older
But I am who
I am and that is Me
Why can’t
you take Me as I am?
I love you
with every ounce I can gather
I gasp for
the same air as you
I nurture
everything about you
I cater to
your pleasures
I surrender
to your touch
But it’s not
enough
I’m not
enough
Why can’t
you take Me as I am?
I am
recklessly in love with you
Because you
are what made me want to be more
You are the
reason I kept believing
You are the
reason I kept on wishing
You were the
ultimate prize
And yet I’ve
lost- again and again
Miserably…
Why can’t
you take Me as I am?
I’m in love,
I admit it.
I’m selfish,
I admit it.
I’m
stubborn, I admit it.
I’m
opinionated, I admit that too.
But I’m all
of this for you.
Why can’t
you take Me as I am?
I’ve made
mistakes
And I’ve
paid for them
I’ve hurt
you before
I tried to
repair your heart
I’ve been
abused and misused
But my head
is still high
I came
through it all
To see what’s
in your heart
Why can’t
you see what’s in mine
Why can’t
you take Me for who I am right now?
You know why
you can’t see Me
Because you’re
filled with the old me
And what the
old me did
And what the
old me lied about
How the old
me cheated on you
How the old
me walked away
How the old
me married someone else
How the old
me carried someone else’s child
How the old
me used to love because I didn’t know back then what the new Me knows now
I know why You
can’t take me for Me
Because You
can’t take you for You
Because the
old you can’t see the new Me
Its
cock-blocking and throwing curve balls
And getting
tangled in Your own webs
And fooling yourself
like you did back then
And Your
impatient with Who I am now
Because the
old you hasn’t caught up with the new Me
And the new
Me is looking for the old you
And the two
of You and the two of Me
Can’t seem
to come to one conclusion----
US!
You can’t take
Me for who I am
Because You’re
too caught up
On who I was
That you
can’t see You
Being happy
with Me
Because the
old you
Wants the
new Me
But the new
You
Can only see
the old me
And we all
can’t see forward to the future
…because you
can’t love the New me
Because You’re
too in love
With the old
me
To fall in
love with who you see-
Me. Right Now. Me. Tomorrow. Me. Future. Me.
Reality. Me.
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